The most difficult decision of my life
So, I didn't keep my own expectations on my blogging this first round (I thought I would blog more, which I will step by step). I have a good enough excuse to why it went slow at the end; I was busy trying to figure out my next step in my life.
The past 3 years, New York has been my home away from home, and suddenly I had to make a decision on what I was going to do after I graduated. I wish it was so much easier for international students to stay and be able to work in the states, but unfortunately it's not. Of course, some people, that are desperate enough, might take jobs under the table to be able to stay in the city. Anyways, I don't know how many times I kept going back and forth with "should I stay and try to find a job here in NY" and, "I should go home to Norway, because my family is there", and I was driving myself crazy. I had created a life in NY, so it was definitely the hardest decision I have had to make. The last couple of months I was concerned with what my next step was going to be. I dont know why, but I didn't want to work at a random place just so I could survive living in the city. Yes, it is an experience, but I had already lived there for so long, and experienced so much. I wanted to do something that made a difference NOW, and my ability to stay was running out. After all, I graduated, and I didn't know what to do with the degree. After a couple of months of "fun" and relaxing time, and a good break to Miami with some amazing friends, I was getting desperate for a change. For some reason I wasn't functioning the way I was supposed to the last 3 months, I knew I had to get out my comfort zone again, and make a change for my self. After a total of 16 years in school, this was suddenly over?! Now, looking back, I think I didn't want to accept the transition into the working life. I didn't want to start working and be like "everyone else". I didn't want to get imprisoned, but at the same time, reality told me I couldn't continue without an income… I had the best time of my life in this city, experienced things people could only dream of, made friends for life and found my self a MAN! I will always Love New York, the concrete jungle, and I will forever come back to it! <3 I will make another blog with my experiences and my own pictures that I like to share.Vacation in Norway
I decided to "move" back home. This is just temporarily. I was telling my story to an amazing woman, and I was sad to tell her that I didn't know if I should stay so I could work in NY or leave. I always wanted to have a job that involved traveling and I knew I would have to move a lot, but this was different. I have a boyfriend now, and I had spent 3 important years of my life in this place. The woman gave me the best advice that I will take with me everywhere I go. She told me to think of leaving NY, and moving back to Norway, as a "vacation". It put a smile on my face. She was right! Every time I leave a place I get attached to, and want to come back to, I will always think of it as I am going on a vacation! This really is temporarily. I am working on accomplishing several things, and when I accomplish it, I will share it!
The Next Step
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It hit me after I graduated how many years of our lives we spend in school, and how much of it really is used when we start working. Not much of the theoretical information is used, and I feel many people argue that school is not for everyone. I agree, but at the same time, it shapes us and help "raise" us. With that said, I was scared to start the life meant for a regular person that finished college. A part of the reason for why I came back was so I could plan my next step clearly, and have support from my family who I haven't spent enough time with the last 3 years. I have always stood by the good in my life and always supported what I believed in was right, I always defended the defenseless and this became my life. Because of that I felt I was meant to protect and make changes for people that need it. I have a background of gold that have made me who I am, and just like I want to use mine to make a difference, I wish more people did the same using theirs. I want to explore and discover things that are important to discover, which is why I have always encouraged people to GO. Leave your comfort zone, and that is where I believe your next step will be, because that's where I found mine. I refuse to graduate from college, get kids, settle somewhere, work "just to make it", or save some money on the side to travel on mini vacations now and then, and be a tourist (never!), when I have a powerful weapon to make a difference for my self and others. I encourage you to do the same.
